Sunday, July 24, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Everyone Has Story (This is Mine) UPDATE
So, its been a while since i have posted anything, and i logged in an read over my (Everyone Has a Story) Blogs...A little bit of a pick-me-up i guess. When i'm feeling down or discouraged, to remember where i started, and how far I've Come. So i figured i would Do a Little update Blog About whats Been going on in the Last Year or so as far as What i wrote about Concerning Love & My Family Issues.
As far as Mine and My Fathers Relationship, i said before we were Working on it. As of Today, we Have a great Relationship. Better Than ever, he's been there for me so many times in the Last Couple years...Everything from Coming to the Rescue when Nobody else would when i got into my Car Accident Late at night last winter, to the countless times I've called him up and said "Dad, can you please look at my car again, its acting funny!!" (lol) He's Been there for me...and not only me, but for my oldest Sister, Which is not even his daughter, yet since she was a year old...he Never made her feel like She wasn't one of his Own.
Almost 2 months ago, i lost a 17 year old cousin in a Bad car accident, and My Dad called me Crying Saying "I know im a bad Father, but Please don't ever do this to me, because i don't know what i would do if anything bad ever happened to you" And that broke my heart, because i don't ever want him to think of himself as a bad father. Regardless of anything that happened in the past...Its the Past...and To me...In The present Moment, (which i believe is all that matters) , i consider him an Amazing and Wonderful Father.
As Far as My Mother...That's a little bit More Complicated...She hasn't changed a bit since My Blog. If anything She's gotten Worse. Which has left me feeling, well, i really don't even know. A lot of times I'm ready to just write her out of my Life. And its sad that i should even have to. But she's become so wrapped up in her crazy little world. And i really just don't want to deal with her crap anymore. She's doing to my 16 year old sister, exactly what she did with me. Except my sister was younger when it all started, so its affected her far worse. You can Clearly see all she wants is even the slightest bit of Love and Attention from my mother, and when she doesn't get it...she acts out. Shes very immature for her age, and i def don't see her being able to Take care of herself on her own anytime soon. I believe it all has to do with My Mother-putting her through all the BS that She has. My mom is currently in a relationship with a woman, that she even admitted she wasn't attracted to. Last AUGUST She Quit her job because of her last abusive relationship (they worked together) and hasn't even put in any effort since to find another job to support herself and my sister. That's almost a YEAR!! What kind of example is that? So now she moved in with this new girlfriend, who she hardly knows, and within a week of them even meeting, she had already put my mom on her phone plan, gave her a few thousand dollars, and just recently bought her a car. And My mom acts like she Likes her. But i honestly believe she just cant take care of herself, and needs/wants someone else to do it for her. She's Childish. And that's just The Beginning of all the craziness I've Dealt with concerning her in the last how many years...But in the end, it just kills me that she's failing to be a good parent to My Little Sister. i Wonder if she'll ever Grow up.
So That's Pretty Much Whats been going on with me lately-In a Nutshell.... A lot of people that know me Personally wonder how the heck i can deal with all the stress and situations I've recently dealt/am dealing with - with such a carefree attitude. I Seem to take things lightly and maybe act like i don't care, but i do, but after all I've dealt with I've learned that life could always be worse. Things are always going to be thrown at you that make it hard to Smile. Make it seem like Life is so hard, but there is always someone who has it worse than you. After everything i have already been through, everything getting thrown at me seems so petty...why give up after I've already overcome so much? We just gotta Keep Moving. =)
Once again, i wanna thank all my friends...For Just Being...You! The Best! I don't know what I'd do without all of you! ♥
As far as Mine and My Fathers Relationship, i said before we were Working on it. As of Today, we Have a great Relationship. Better Than ever, he's been there for me so many times in the Last Couple years...Everything from Coming to the Rescue when Nobody else would when i got into my Car Accident Late at night last winter, to the countless times I've called him up and said "Dad, can you please look at my car again, its acting funny!!" (lol) He's Been there for me...and not only me, but for my oldest Sister, Which is not even his daughter, yet since she was a year old...he Never made her feel like She wasn't one of his Own.
Almost 2 months ago, i lost a 17 year old cousin in a Bad car accident, and My Dad called me Crying Saying "I know im a bad Father, but Please don't ever do this to me, because i don't know what i would do if anything bad ever happened to you" And that broke my heart, because i don't ever want him to think of himself as a bad father. Regardless of anything that happened in the past...Its the Past...and To me...In The present Moment, (which i believe is all that matters) , i consider him an Amazing and Wonderful Father.
As Far as My Mother...That's a little bit More Complicated...She hasn't changed a bit since My Blog. If anything She's gotten Worse. Which has left me feeling, well, i really don't even know. A lot of times I'm ready to just write her out of my Life. And its sad that i should even have to. But she's become so wrapped up in her crazy little world. And i really just don't want to deal with her crap anymore. She's doing to my 16 year old sister, exactly what she did with me. Except my sister was younger when it all started, so its affected her far worse. You can Clearly see all she wants is even the slightest bit of Love and Attention from my mother, and when she doesn't get it...she acts out. Shes very immature for her age, and i def don't see her being able to Take care of herself on her own anytime soon. I believe it all has to do with My Mother-putting her through all the BS that She has. My mom is currently in a relationship with a woman, that she even admitted she wasn't attracted to. Last AUGUST She Quit her job because of her last abusive relationship (they worked together) and hasn't even put in any effort since to find another job to support herself and my sister. That's almost a YEAR!! What kind of example is that? So now she moved in with this new girlfriend, who she hardly knows, and within a week of them even meeting, she had already put my mom on her phone plan, gave her a few thousand dollars, and just recently bought her a car. And My mom acts like she Likes her. But i honestly believe she just cant take care of herself, and needs/wants someone else to do it for her. She's Childish. And that's just The Beginning of all the craziness I've Dealt with concerning her in the last how many years...But in the end, it just kills me that she's failing to be a good parent to My Little Sister. i Wonder if she'll ever Grow up.
So That's Pretty Much Whats been going on with me lately-In a Nutshell.... A lot of people that know me Personally wonder how the heck i can deal with all the stress and situations I've recently dealt/am dealing with - with such a carefree attitude. I Seem to take things lightly and maybe act like i don't care, but i do, but after all I've dealt with I've learned that life could always be worse. Things are always going to be thrown at you that make it hard to Smile. Make it seem like Life is so hard, but there is always someone who has it worse than you. After everything i have already been through, everything getting thrown at me seems so petty...why give up after I've already overcome so much? We just gotta Keep Moving. =)
Once again, i wanna thank all my friends...For Just Being...You! The Best! I don't know what I'd do without all of you! ♥
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